Hello blogworld! Long time, no speak.
I guess I should start from where I last left off. That whole Chris situation is over and done with. We broke up, and I learned what a true douchebag he really was. Even his best friends warned me about the fact that he was a complete tool. But whatever, I have no regrets, I've learned from my mistakes. We spoke a day after my last post, and that's when we decided to take a break. We didn't speak for another month and a half. Sad, right? Well anywho, we ran into each other about 2 weeks ago...and he was with another girl. Looks like I had a lying, cheating jerk on my hands. He had apparently been talking to her for a while, even while we were together. But I wasn't hurt to see them together. I guess I could say the emotion that surged through my body was rage. Beyond anger, rage.
On another note, I'm super confused. I like 2 different guys. 1 is a close friend of douchebag's. The other is a guy I'm close with. I honestly don't know what to do. i don't know if I actually like both of them, either. On top of that, I'm starting to miss Chris. His arms around me, the way he kissed me, and the sound of his voice. Maybe I just miss feeling loved, who knows? On a better note, I haven't been this happy in a while. I honestly don't know why, but I just feel free. Like I have amazing friends, and we always know how to have a good time.
Today was pretty amazing. I woke up super early after like no sleep and went to ralph's. We were supposed to go on his boat, but his gma was sick. So Steph, Laur and I went back to my house. We put on SoLows and big hoodies, and turned my room into an igloo. Like legit, it was only 70 degrees out, but we had the air conditioner on at about 60 degrees. We made pasta and walked to Cedar, and took pictures in the park. It was super fun. Like I haven't laughed this much in a while. The pictures are the greatest. I can honestly say I love mah best friendsss (=
Gurwin tomorrow!
Hey i never would have thought that when you left me i'd feel sexy and so good in my skin again. And i never would have known that i'd be dreaming so much better without you in my head.....I look so good without you, Got me a new hair due. Lookin' fresh and brand new since you said that we were through, done with your lies. Baby now my tears dry.
-Jessie James
